Still ...

Woke up at 5.30 a.m ...

Just because of the pot luck event that woke me up from the dreams...

well... it's kinda too early... so i decided to take 15 minutes more...

and during the moment... my youngest sister stayed in the bathroom =.="

so... i'll wait... then when i wanted to went in the bathroom, another 1 came and told me...

'You take a long time for shower, let me bath 1st... i'm faster' =.="

then... finally it's my turn to take a hot shower ~

after that, my 2nd alarm rings... so i turn it off...

and i saw message from meguro said that he'll be late...

well... your message was unexpected one...

After reading the message...

well... maybe it is what i'm expected to be...

and the content in the message din't surprise me at all...

guess it's the 2nd time i receiving or becoming like this...

maybe i'm really not the type that you need... 

or maybe i'm the the one who thinks that i still having any chances...

Well the truth is no... but i still place hope on it...

hope there's any single changes? 

Oh well... guess it doesn't change anything at all...

To be telling the truth, maybe i can't treat you just the way you treat me...

a year before that... we're still friends after all... but...

i can't resist nor i can control my feelings...

it's like giving me another chance to know you more, it's like a hope to me...

Friends, maybe you can proceed with the way you treat me as a friend...

but for me... i can't... 

Well... i don't think i'll be able to face you nor text you now...

the awkward situation will appear again...

Well... an apologize from you wouldn't affect my feelings towards you...

But the thing is...

you may continue treat me as a friend...

as for me... nothing will be changed at all... still it will be the same...

but what i really hope is...

be happy always... 

and i'll just stay beside and continue to be a light for you...

that's only the way i can continue to stay...

By the way... presents already bought...

well i have no idea who else i going to gift besides you...

i'll just pass the things to you on that day... 

whether you decide to keep it or not it's your choice...

Still... nothing will be changed from me...

because i can't forget... T.T

kfc~